Is there a God? Does he really care about me? Is there life after death? Is Heaven real? Have people really experienced Heaven? Is there an unseen realm with supernatural beings? Can I really hear God's voice? Have people really escaped death? Was Enoch really 'taken'? Were we there at the beginning?
These are all questions people think, but daren't utter, myself included. In this post, I'll be sharing with you my walk with God and spiritual realisations, especially those that completely dismantled my denominational theology.
But first, let's start at the beginning.
I was raised in a 'Christian' home - but my experience with church was not like the common 'christian' upbringing. Proud to say, a rare one. Lemme esplain...
My parents were saved in the 'marketplace', at an AMWAY conference before I was born, so my frame of reference for church culture was the monthly Sunday service held by one of the major earners in Melbourne at the tail end of the monthly AMWAY business conference.
It wasn't until I was 15 that I attended a 'traditional' church - a good ol' bible-belt Baptist church. This church - Freeway - was where I had my first experience on a worship team, and the first church I expressed myself in worship by raising my hands. I remember the service too... my heart was beating out of my chest, but I felt God was calling me to be bold. My hands were clammy, and with butterflies in my stomach, I raised my hands. [Cue the Tim Hawkins video]
I remember giving my heart to God when I was 3 or 4. I was water baptised on the Gold Coast at the age of 12 at a youth camp and baptised in the Spirit at this camp as well.
The worship team quickly became the outlet for me to apply my musical abilities. For 10 years that's how I spent most of my Sundays, on many a worship team... playing the drums, bass, acoustic guitar with backing vocals - I even lead a worship set or two at a couple of the youth events.
Grew up in a Christian home, knew all the popular Christian songs, knew key scriptures - I was very involved in church life and called myself a 'Christian'. I never knew life without the Trinity. But I can't say I related to the members of the trinity evenly, or even well, I certainly didn't need them as I've come to in the last 3 years.
Even though I knew of God, I can't say I knew him - and to a point, no one can profess to know him completely because he keeps his mystery - but I didn't spend the time getting to know him as he knows me.
To me, God was the guy who made me, who knew me better than knew myself, and was the one I would beg for favour upon a desire of my heart that I wanted to come to fruition. I knew the Holy Spirit as my comforter - but in recent times, I haven't leaned on the Holy Spirit as much as I once did.
As for Jesus, well - I related to him the least - "Hey Jesus, Thanks for dying for me... appreciate it 👍🏼" [insert awkward silence] - this pretty much sums up the conversation and relating I felt towards Jesus for most of my walk.
That is until I came to the end of me. I was extremely dissatisfied and disillusioned by the lack of miracles and power of my Christian walk.
It all came blatantly clear, in 2019 when a dear friend of mine died. I was beside myself with grief, and unhappiness and was questioning everything about my life.
I did something many have done - that was to give God an ultimatum...
"Show me it's worth the pain to stick it out here", I said in my heart one evening when I took myself to bed at 5:30pm. I'd said goodnight to my family not expecting to see them until midday the next day I was so tired.
I played this podcast Dad shared with me as I settled off to get some sleep.
It wasn't long before I was K-O'ed. But something I didn't expect happened - I woke 2 hours later with so much energy and wasn't tired, nor hungry for the following 40 hours.
After this experience, which was completely foreign to me, I believe I encountered supernatural manna from Heaven.
Within a month of this supernatural energy and rest, I had another encounter, but this time I found myself in Heaven in the garden with Jesus.
I was sitting on the couch with Dad before a shift at work, waiting for the time to come for me to head off, so we decided to go for a little ascension - closed my eyes, quietened my mind, and focused on the oneness with Jesus.
"I'm in you... you're in me... I'm in you... You're in me"
In moments, I found myself sitting under a willow tree.
Jesus was sitting to the right of me on this bench under the gorgeous green canopy of the willow.
I looked beyond the canopy and to the right of me, I saw a cliff-face of a mountain that had a waterfall flowing down to a riverbank that wasn't far from the tree.
There were rainbows shooting out of the waterfall.
There were rocks that stuck out the side of the left of the cliff-face which formed little pools.
I saw fishes jump from pool to pool on the side of that cliff face.
To the left of that cliff face and on the other side of the river, was a field of flowers and children playing amongst them.
The flowers looked similar to tulips, but they changed colour and let out sounds as they moved.
The children would run amongst these flowers engaging and playing with them, and as the children ran through the flowers, the flowers weren't crushed, instead, they passed through the children, imparting song and stories as the children ran amongst them.
My attention was brought back to sitting on the bench with Jesus under this willow tree - I looked to the grass at my feet - it was such a magnificent green, but the blades of grass were also translucent.
As I studied the grass, the cosmos appeared through the blades, and the roots of the tree extended throughout the galaxy beneath my feet.
As my eyes followed the roots of that tree, I saw them extend into every person walking on the face of the earth - my heart knew at that moment - everything is connected, and everyone is connected to the place which they came from; Heaven.
Finally, Jesus stood up and knelt in front of me, he had a set of keys on a ring in his hand. He leaned forward and put them in my stomach - I was perplexed and asked him what they were. His response: "These are the keys that unlock the mystery of the universe."
I was rocked to my core - so very humbled that he would give me such a thing, but also, I was dying to know how to use them and what they would unlock. To which, I received no further answer, but instead my mission, like it says in this scripture:
“It is the glory of God to conceal a matter, But the glory of kings is to search out a matter.” Proverbs 25:2 NKJV
This was just one of a few encounters I have had with Jesus, but every time I come away feeling more connected to my original design and closer to walking in my destiny.
One of the byproducts of my ascension experiences I have noticed is the knowledge of the odd spiritual laws or keys of wisdom without any recollection of ever being taught it. I came to realise that just by being with Jesus in these encounters, I am absorbing the culture of Heaven and come away with keys I didn't even consciously learn about during my time there.
This was such a revelation!
The amount of times I heard preachers speak about 'spending time with Jesus is the most important thing because all your issues will be resolved' sounded absolutely bonkers and counterproductive to me until I lived it and experienced the wisdom by osmosis, not by conscience.
This is just one example of many questions I had on my heart but couldn't draw a logical conclusion because of my lack of experience until I started ascending.
So many questions I had about historical events and principles of being a follower of Christ answered themselves once I started receiving downloads by osmosis while walking in Heaven.
These last 2 and a half years have helped me unlearn much of my beliefs about God that were based on theories - where now, I have solidified my faith, and have sound beliefs that are based on my supernatural experiences from my personal relationship with God.
As odd as it feels to write, I am thankful for Covid and the lockdowns - during this time, I have expedited the unpacking and unlearning of a lot of beliefs that were based on a lack of evidence and experience.
What a great thing too... I feel this has worked in my favour when it comes to testing out some foundational beliefs before becoming a parent, and when it comes to finding a life partner, but mostly that it helps me become a better person and representation of what it means to be a follower of Christ.
I can't see how being any other type of Christian is anywhere close to satisfying or life-changing as this that I have encountered in the last 2 years.
The veil between Heaven and Earth is thinner than ever before. We live under an open Heaven.
I encourage you to welcome coming to the end of yourself, and in your desperation, ask God to catch you up and show you great and mighty things you know not of - it will radically change your life, as it has mine.
We were born for so much more than this, it's high time we start to encounter Heaven and learn what it actually looks like for “Your kingdom come. Your will be done on EARTH as it is in HEAVEN.” Matthew 6:10 NKJV
And meditating is a great place to start.